I really do not know what to post. I have a lot in my ind and I cant sort them all out. Let me just get to something that I feel like writing, about dating sites. LOL.
Just a day ago, me and my boyfriend had a little serious talk about life. I mean(serious) since we rarely talk this way.LOL. He told me a lot, about me staying just at home, doing home based job, waiting for him come home after work and do somewhat "housewife stuff". He said that I am too young to do this stuff. He wants me to explore my life even more. Like go to other places and find what else life has to offer me. He sees me as a stagnant one and will never grow if I stay like this. I told him my reason, and maybe its a bit selfish but that is what I feel. He understood what I meant and was still happy for me. But the next day, when he left for work, I had this time to think about what he said. I found myself swimming in the depths of reality that he is right. I've been so stagnant for so long. Yes, I am definitely happy with this but there should still be room for growth. Then I fell back to my goals and dreams. I sorted them out and I came up with a very long list. I felt ashamed for myself. I had these dreams and ambitions all this time yet I chose to leave them all out to live a life that is just for now. I didnt mind what future will be for me. I was just thinking about life at this moment. Suddenly, I felt the strength. I told myself, I should get a life. I should try things, and part of it is doing this Blog.LOL. I am definitely happy with what I have now and where I am. But i fathomed, I still wanted more. I wanted to try things I havent done. Then came to my mind and believe this, in my boyfriends mind(it was really his idea.LOL), that I should try entering dating sites. I dont know why he came with that thought, and my friends told me maybe he's showing a sign that he wants me off he's life or he has someone else. Well I say, as long as we are happy, we're good with it.:P. Let's go back. So there, I went to this site and found they have a lot of foreign guys seeking Filipina wives. I burst into laughter and told my boyfriend about it. He was mad, of course.LOL. But then, I had fun with it. I had a lot of views and interest from different men (and it was flattering).Then now, I have made a lot of friends. Not that I am engaging into any relationship with them but I am happy having friends from different countries. My boyfriend even saw some of the guys I made friends with. Its just like the other social networking sites, make friends with people all over the world, talk with them.
Now, I dont know how to end this post. blahblah. I really think I've been staying alone much and just wanted to have someone to talk with. That is why I made this blog to express what I wanted to say. And since I am alone always in the house, I dont have anyone to tell my blahblah's to. LOL.
Just here. I should get going...:P
